Toni Braxton who went bankrupt has opened up on her life, how she got broke,how she regrets having an abortion and getting a nose and boob job in 1992..It is all in her new memoir “Unbreak My Heart”..Very revealing and touching…These are some excerpts from the book as published on Mailonline..
‘I’d been wanting to change my nose for years – I wanted it to be less broad. But because of the conservative ideas I was raised with, I struggled with the thought of altering my body.And of course, I later got my b**bies done. I’d always been shaped like a gymnast – size double A br***sts and thunder thighs. In fact, I wish I would’ve had lipo on my inner thighs. I’ve always hated them’I loved how they looked. At last – Homely Toni Braxton had some curves. Before I got the br*()st implants, my stylist would use duct tape beneath my tiny b0obs to make it look like I had cleavageTo this day, I am still happy I got that nose job. Yes, I wish I’d gotten it smaller, but the new nose did fit my face so much better’.
‘Now people started asking, ‘Who’s the short girl with the chubby cheeks, the pixie haircut, and the big ol’ butt? I never thought I had a big bu^t —though I do have Serena Williams thighs
Her first big financial payday came in 1996 with an advance on future recordings that came to a whopping $1.6 million before paying taxes, agents, lawyers, managers – which left her $600,000. So she started spending.
She bought a house, a mahogany Schimmel piano, leased a Jeep Cherokee. She began sleeping in the double suite penthouse at the Four Seasons in New York.
My only regret was having no one to share the room with me’
Clive Davis, the famed record producer and music industry executive, wanted her to go out on tour with saxophonist Kenny G. so she could develop the same crossover appeal as Whitney Houston and develop a white audience.But she needed to work with black promoters as well.
She tried backing out of the tour but it was too late; tickets were being sold. When the tour ended, she had to borrow a million dollars from Arista to pay for the band, the sets, lights, background singers and dancers, wardrobe.
On being Heartbroken
During the tour, she hooked up with Curtis Martin, a football running back who played for the New England Patriots.Several weeks in the relationship, Curtis asked her how she felt about waiting. They had only been kissing and hugging.
‘For me, sex is for when you get married. ‘I can’t wait to make love to my wife one day’.
In early 1998, around the time of her first bankruptcy, Curtis was very supportive ‘but then things started to get weird in other ways’.He had new restriction on touching and started saying
‘We shouldn’t touch each other below the neck’.We’d be making out, and all of a sudden, he’d just stop. ‘That could lead to other things.He then announced that ‘Jesus told me we had to break up. God told me that we shouldn’t be together anymore. I can best serve you as your friend’.
‘Huh? We’re friends now’, she protested. ‘We’re not lovers – we haven’t even been intimate’!I flew back to Los Angeles feeling numb and confused. I was completely heartbroken…’Once home, I curled up in my bedroom and cried like a little kid…’
Being Broke Again
Nothing was going right. She couldn’t keep up with payments she owed Arista. She sold her home in Atlanta and moved to LA but she still needed to borrow more money to pay for the tour.
After Arista deducted their costs and production of the album that was selling with the hit Un-Break My Heart, her royalty check was $2000.
Despite five Grammys, five American Music Awards and three MTV Video Music Awards at the end of 1997, her debts totaled nearly $4 million.She had to sue her producer and Arista and file for Chapter 7 bankruptcy. She had signed a bad contract that allowed the record company to collect marketing costs of her albums from her instead of underwriting the expenses themselves.
‘Even though I was trying to act strong, I felt broken.’ She cried her way through her depression and ate Twizzlers and Kit Kats.
She finally reached an agreement with the label and Toni received $20 million. But then there were agents, managers, and attorneys to pay, along with taxes. She moved back to Atlanta.
Getting Married and having an abortion
Love was in the cards this time and she fell hard for Keri Lewis, a keyboardist and producer. She got pregnant but decided that the baby should be aborted because she was taking Accutane for acne, a drug that has since been taken off the market.
She had signed a waiver at the time she got the prescription, saying she understood possible catastrophic side effects of deformation of a fetus for up to two years after ceasing to take the drug.
I believed I had taken a life – an action that I thought God might one day punish me for’.
Keri and Toni married in 2001 and eight months later had a baby boy, Denim. Two years later, she would have a second baby boy, Diezel was diagnosed with autism.
I have sometimes wondered whether God was punishing me for the abortion I had years ago by allowing my son to have autism. Or by giving me so many health issues.
On her deteriorating Health
Her health kept deteriorating with the pressure to perform and stress over her deteriorating marriage. Divorce was inevitable, she writes, but Toni and her ex have but remained friends. A second Chapter 7 bankruptcy filing was also inevitable.
She was now being sued to cover the cost of the cancelled shows at the Flamingo. She was the producer and the insurance company was not going to pick up the cost because she failed to list her health conditions. She had also taken out a personal loan for millions to launch the Vegas show
She lost her home in Vegas. The bank foreclosed on her home in Atlanta and she moved into a rented home in LA.
Following the diagnosis of lupus, she thought it best not to disclose her condition thinking people wouldn’t hire her or want to be associated with her. ‘
But carrying such a big secret is a form of bondage – and above all else, I want to be free”
She’s now on the drug Kenalog, a steroid for the lupus. She also gets shots that cause her face to balloon up.
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